QA teambuilding @ Tanauan

We had our QA teambuilding at the same place we had it the last time.
At Tanauan, Batangas, sa resort ng boa ni Mother Jill..

Ayun, ok naman siya.

It was fun.
We had our chance to get to know our new lil sisters (and brothers?) sa QA team.

Naiyak lang ako nung kinagabihan.
Ewan ko kung bakit. Hehe. Chismis.

Tas kinagabihan.. Pasok na naman.

Sayang di ako nakasama sa Buccaneers. Nagpunta sila sa Galera eh.

100 days

Because I liked My Sassy Girl, I was inspired to adopt the 100 days celebration of their relationship. Wala lang. kornicks! hehehe!

Had people, my agents, my co-QARs give love notes to bebe.
kaso di ko natapos. take note: thats 100 notes. cut into hearts, and stars.

It was fun.
Basta masaya..

mA sAssy girL

ma sassy girl.
am i one?

di naman ata ko ganun.
siguro half lang.
half kay besa.

i really love the story, somewhat reminds me of me before..

drunk in tears.
broken hearted.
saved by the one,
one who's with me now.

'twas the night when i was so happy to the extremes only to find out that i'll be scared to the verge of tears falling.

it was totally unexpected.
but it was expected.
scary though.

never been so scared this much.

maybe because its halloween?

theres nothing to do but let tears fall.
run away.
hide.

how long is this gonna last?

how long can I last?

my hands are tied.

its hard to be where i am now.
i dont even know how i got here.

what am i getting into?
i didnt even realize it until i got here.
i dont want to think that im trapped.
trapped between my mind and my heart.

i do know that i am happy.
sometimes real, sometimes not.

am i too demanding?
of myself and the people around me?

the person staring at me in my most darkest hour,
is the person waiting in vain for me to understand.
i dont even know why i started it.

having doubts? yes.

but when you love, you need no doubts.
its unfair.
unfair to yourself and the person staring back at you.

am i ready to give it all?

long lasting relationships are based on honesty and trust.
am i trusting enough?

i trust anyone so easily. because i know that no one would betray me.
maybe thats what i think. or what i want to believe.
may it be true or not.

weve been running several months,
in circles, perhaps.

now i dont want to be too demanding.
but need i not demand?
even if im being broken down into pieces?

everyone can bring you down.
but i dont want to be the one to hurt myself anymore.

i am not YOUR doctor.

I don't want to be your other half I believe that one and one make two.

I don't want to be the glue that holds your pieces together.

I don't want to be your idol.
See this pedestal is high and I'm afraid of heights.

I don't want to be responsible for your fractured heart and its wounded beat.

I don't want to be a substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling.

What do you thank me for.

David & Kaye's wedding

it was 1230pm and was raining so hard.
jhon and i was late on meeting up with camela and mark.
hehe. galit na nga honey ko eh.

took a sta cruz bus and arrived at cayet's cabin at 2pm exactly.
which was the scheduled time for the wedding to start.

nagmamadali na kami magbihis, sumabay kami sa van.
nakakahiya nga eh. at eto pang si besa, hay naku, sabi ko magdala ng polo. wala din pala.

we arrived at the church by 3pm, and people had lined up for the communion.


honey, be, epol & minette

it was just a simple church. but who cares? its a wedding of 2 lovers who, i think is on their 5th year already being together. gosh. sweet.

we saw minette and kix there as well. they were kaye's team mates at directv.

kulit ni besa. photographer at alalay in one. hehe.
love you, man.

after the wedding, we went to the reception.

astig yung place.

all glass walls, overlooking laguna.

ganda lalo na nung kinagabihan.
nawili nga kami sa picture, i brought my digicam.

stayed at villa mejia.

in the moring, we bought goto sa may crossing.

checked out 12 noon.

naiwanan pa ni camela ung damit niya.
hehehe.

Recto Records at Nina Live!

kailan kaya matatapos ang magulong kwento ni babebibobu?

world war na naman daw.
sana may maitulong ako. pero wala.
everytime something happens, theres onlyone thing I hope for.
sana bumalik parin sila.

ayun.
nagpunta na lang kami ng recto records. (as Jhon calls it)
super girl ako. nakaskirt. ready to sing with Nina ng,

"Dont call me in the middle of the night no more.." at ng,

"Love moves in mysterious ways.."

I bought PBB soundtrack and Jagged Little Pill acoustic.
ganda ng Alanis. I heard it playing at Glorietta.
Favorite ko talaga tong album dati pa.

papapalit sana ng earrings si Jhon ng biglang nangyari
ang isang nakakahiyang pangyayari..

napigtal ung sandals ko!
gusto ko na ngang umiyak nun eh.
pero buti na lang,
may hikaw ako sa bag.. este.. perdible pala.

kinabit niya muna at nagpunta kami sa isettan para bumili ng sandals.
nagkaron tuloy ako ng dahilan para bumili ng sandals. hehehe.

anyway.. it was quite fun. hehehe.
were supposed to take the lrt but i might be late for 630 meeting with chris at allied.

"I'm missing you already!"

wala lang. hehe.

Met Chrissy at Ministop.
We took the mrt.
When we arrived, Toni, Pia, Tolitz and Ria were already inside.
Were just in time, its okay because we had good seats at Araneta.

The concert was fun!
Chrissy and I was really excited to hear, I dont want to be your friend.
I remember 2 are my themesongs, courtesy of Chris and Maymay.


the closest I can get to her..

Nina was great, great outfits as well, colorful nga eh.
I just didnt like the last part when she sang, I believe I can fly."
Di siya nakalipad eh..


pia & toni after the concert

I loved Through the fire as well..

Next concert would be MYMP in NOvember.. ipon na!


ayan si Nina sa likod!

After, we went to Rj's place.
It was so cozy (as they described it.)
Japanese inspired.
All white.
Very minimalistic yet unique.


ganda nung naka-skirt.. hehe..

Natulog.
Uminom sandali.
At pumasok na sa Allied.
Natulog ulit.

Took calls for 2 hours.

Haay..

Pwede magpahinga?

extra challenge!

4pm. 6 waffle time. jolly cheezy fries. buendia. lipa bus. turbina. crossing. waltermart. van. fog. lots of fog. 1500. pinoy big brother. then and there. winter cold. corned beef and bbq. grove. anklets. on his knees and a guitar. ecotrail. suspension bridge. love the long walk. telescope. air supply. bring me to life. sky palace. where's olivarez?. lanzones. panucha. sweet tamarind. lawton. lots of pics. church. goodbyes. 5pm.



hehe. ganyan talaga pag tinatamad magpost.
basta masaya.

lalo na pag kasama mo ang abala sa buhay mo.

regularization.

wow.
never thought its possible.
6 months being a qa.

happiness. hehe.
we did the epr at starbucks 6750.

it was good.
same AFI for me.
assertiveness.
haha. i know.
i'll try.

out in the open

grateful and happy.
i had the guts now to say it all.
out in the open.

everyone knows.
karen, maymay, qars..
everyone around.

now i wont be afraid.
thats how i want it.
now im happy.
but not completely,
of course.

im still scared.
though this one knows.
im scared to meet this one.
chaos.

paranoia kills your brain.
so does the people around.

what can i do?
when he says im not to be involved.
in any way.
when i know,
in reality,
im one of the reasons.

maymay asked me,
"masaya ka ba?"
i said, "oo naman."

im happy kasi nakuha niya ko tanungin nun.
masaya nako 'cause she cares.

am i really happy?
of course.
every time i would have the chance
to say how i feel, im happy.

ang hirap ng sitwasyon.
pero pinipilit mo.
kasi kailangan.
kasi nagmamahal ka.

one sassy day.

i think sassy girl is a nice movie to watch.
kaso nga lang in filipino.
darn.

i liked it when i saw the tagline.


..story of a broken hearted girl..

..and the boy who would try to heal her heart..

..will she stay after the pain is healed..?

..will fate lead them together..?


hehehe.
sakto.
pati dun sa kasama ko.

umiyak ba sa sinehan?
sa himig ng mymp?

"..tell me where it hurts and ill do my best to make it better..

i just discovered that i can cry just hearing a particular love song.
and it wont start unless the song would start.

dapat talaga may tama yung kanta.

memories.

abby arrived at around 11pm.. gosh.
i was about to close my eyes and sleep then she texted me and told me to wait outside for her taxi.

dunno where were going. (si abby di alam?)
of course, as usual. Anthology.

decided to wait for pj there.
were seated at the first table we had the first time we were together at that place.

memories. haha. abby had a lot. i had my own share.
with roger (roger rabbit or roger moore?) and jhon. hahaha.

that was the first time i heard four cute words that i wont forget.
from the mouth of the one who saves.
i was happy at the moment and depressed at the same time.
first time kong lumuha sa kanya.
mixed emotions.

anyway, whats important is now.
that was yesterday.
this is my life now.


avy & pj @ anthology

pj arrived by 12. i think. had one round of strong ice and then we went to common ground. its the place to be. well, back in college. hehe.

had fun at common.
at syempre pinatugtog ang favorite kong gasolina. hehehe.


with pj @ common ground..

called jhon and greeted him. its his bday.
and ian will be a christian by 11am.
too bad i cant be there.

sadness!

Its my birthday..

happy birthday to me.

just like an ordinary day.
nothing so special.
biometrics did not even greet me.
damn thing.
love everyone at the office.
they did greet me.
some friends texted me.
some did not.
anyway..
am i supposed to be happy?

he had lunch at our home.
so whats your problem?

had fun taking pictures with cha & may..
pretty nga namin eh. hehe.


cha, epol & may (pretty gals!)

One of those nights

Went to Megamall yesterday with Jon. watched a movie, ate at Greenwich, beat his ass at Tekken 3 & 4, usual stuffs huh?

here's something new:

** paid a premier ticket at the movie house but Jon rushed me and ran away from the security guard so we can sit at the balcony. I was scared but then, the guard didnt bother to look for us or ask for our tickets. Haha.

** one token got jammed in the Tekken 3 slot so Jon asked help to get it and move to another so we can play Tekken 4. Jon lost, as always. But then, he actually got credits still after he lost in our match, without putting in new tokens. I think we had 4 rounds of free game. Hehe.

** Bumped into Vanessa and Bong. Didnt recognized Bong at first. Late reaction na naman ako. Hehe. I told Vane right then and there. Miss ko yun bruhang yun. Kakaiba pa ngumiti.

Yun lang.

Camela texted me asking if tuloy ba daw gimik ngaun. Si Jon namiss uminom hehe kaya ayun nagpunta kami Villalon. And of course, what would be Villalon if Jon wont sing? Buti isa lang kinanta niya. hehe. The most famous Bring Me to Life.

Mark and Camela arrived by 12 na ata. We were supposed to go to Anthology but it was raining so hard. Bakit ba pag friday ng gabi lagi na lang umuulan?

Mga 230am ata kami lumipat sa Anthology, nakailang wapak.
Masaya na naman ang gabi.
Went home 5am.

Got a ring from Jon.
Wala man lang surprise.
Anyway, ganda siya.

Masaya kaya birthday ko sa tuesday?

sadness.

what is sadness?

going home alone.
worried sick.
lack of sleep.
no one at home.
no payslip.
hungry.
its a secret.
death.

Go ahead

Some things never change.
Some do.
Not just things.
But feelings.

If you dont believe me,
Fine.

Regrets.
All have one.
You did too.
But its over.

I threw it away.
Why?
I dont need it.
Not now.
Not again.

Why did you see it?
I dont know.

But its gone.
I wont go back.
Never.
Not again.

Im here now.
Past is past.
Here is now.
Nowness.

Time is precious.
Mine is yours.
Now.
Cant you see?
Cant you feel?

There's doubt.
I know.
I told you.

If you dont believe me,
Fine.

It was sad.
It was stupid.
It was all gone.

No intention.
Going back.
Never again.

Words are words.
It destroys.
It kills.

Words are precious.
I dont say it.
But I do.

Dont ask anyone.
No one knows.
No one but you.
And me.

But if you dont believe me,
Fine.

It hurts.
Like hell.

Now I can feel.
I do.
I want to.
Ill get over it.
I promise.

Believe me.
Give me time.
I will.

Anthology

I was at Anthology, Malate with Avy last night.
was supposed to go to QC but it pours like hell so we decided not to. Avy arrived by 9pm. Sheez. was about to fall asleep 'cause I havent got any at all. Anyway, we were there t the most famous Anthology, where dreams come true and hearts are broken.. Hehe.

At the bar we had 2 Wapax and squid which sizzles to the bone, hehe. Then we took our drinks to a nearby available table (wow, it rhymes!). Suddenly Mark texted me and said that hes at Marlon's asking where is this so-called Anthology. (I just like to repeat the name over and over..)

And then there he was. The one who's been texting and calling me at home which my mother thought was 'Marge'. Avy's bestfriend. He's okay. At least, we met up. So ayun.

Then we, again took our drinks to an available couch at the side of the bar where it was cozy and had good lighting, like youre up for an investigation in the dark quarters of the Manila City Jail. May kalbo naman kami kasama eh. hehe.

By 4am, we saw Cooky Chua (as always), waiting for her ride together with her bandmates (I think). Senglot na ang lola mo.

Getting ready to go home.. Then the rain suddenly pours like hell. Again. Huwaaaahhhh!

Took a cab. First destination, of course, my house.
I texted him. No reply. Waited all night. Hope he's fine.

Anyway, it was a nice night to have.
Met someone new.
Saw Cooky again.
Had to transfer tables twice.
Was hit by the rain.
Headache.
More headache.

are you married?

im not getting, married or anytime in the future.
i just read this in a friendster bulletin.
kakatuwa eh.

husband - a man who chases women until one
catches him.

kiss - uptown shopping for downtown business.

orgy - group therapy.

pyjamas - an item of clothing newlyweds keep
near their bed in case of fire.

misadventure - an adventure with a miss.

vicious circle - a wedding ring.

adultress - a married women who is too good to be
true.

adultery - fishing without license.

divorce court - hall of blame.

pigamist - a guy with 6 wives.

divorce- the past tense of marriage.
- going through a change of wife.

illegitimate child - sinfant.

irritant - your mother in law.

shotgun wedding - wife or death.

honest - a man who hasn't been caught yet.

genius -another woman's husband

home - the only place to go when the bars are
closed.

The color of my life

Some people are always grumbling because roses have thorns.
I am thankful that thorns have roses.. -Alphonse Kerr

You're a thorn in everyone's life.
No one wants to touch you.
You bring pain.

Me? I'd be glad to grasp tightly until blood squeezes out from my hand than never to feel that thorn which makes the rose strong.

Red.

wala akong kwarto..

alaala ng lumuluhang kahapon..
pinipilit ko na ring kinakahon.

natagpuan ko na ang tunay kong ligaya..
lumabas ako ng kwarto't naroon siya.

Rockestra

When Two Musical Worlds Collide
by Kristine Lim

When an immovable object like classical music meets an irresistible force like indie rock the results are nothing short of explosive.

ROCKESTRA brings together six of the Manila's finest rock bands and the prestigious Manila Symphony Orchestra.

Forget what you think you know about classical music. ROCKESTRA will coax it out of its dusty old box, polish it shiny and new and make it ready for the future, with a little help from our local rock scene.

Imago, Cambio, Sandwich, Silent Sanctuary, Sugarfree, and TwistedHalo will share the stage with the MSO in a mind-blowing collaboration that will happen on August 19, Friday at the Tanghalang Francisco Balagtas (formerly Folk Arts Theater) at 7:30 p.m.

And while you're imagining that: Imagine buying yourself a ticket to ROCKESTRA, telling all your friends about it, showing up at Folk Arts Theater and having the best night you will ever have in your entire life. Now quit imagining and go buy the ticket. Leave your top hat and tails at home. The dress code is strictly smartly caustic.

Tickets priced at Php 975/ 630/ 350/ 175/ 75.
Tickets are available at the CCP Ticket Booth, major National Bookstore branches, robinson's Department Store (Malate, Galleria, Cavite & Pampanga), Tower Records (Makati and Alabang), Music Museum (Virra Mall, Greenhills), Ayala Center Inc. Greenbelt 1 Ticket Booth Cinema Lobby, Glorietta 1 Ticket Booth Cinema Lobby and on the TicketWorld website found at www. ticketworld.com.ph. Call 891.9999 for inquiries and reservations.

Mapanood ko kaya 'to?
Parang astig.
MSO background.

Kaso wala pang sweldo.
Huhuhu.

Gusto ko makita si Aya.
Kumanta ng Prom.
Makinig ng Two Trick.

Source: Estranged Parts

Unplugged

at long last.
after 4 weeks of sleepin off those friday nights, i had a nice one last night.
went to malate with mark & jon.

we picked up Mark at Makati.

T'was was a beautiful night!

I wasnt expecting to see anyone that I know of except the ones I'm with.

1. He who juggles everyone's mind, blabbing about her babies who cant even get their complete nourishment. What do you expect from a mother who would rattle her children's minds and expect a perfect job well done.

2. He who is the source of power of everyone in my present unmotivated world that I kept on living in for the sake of existence whom I am not sure if he has the mind to carry that power.

3. He who has been so truly, madly, crazily in desperate measures to capture back the knight in shining armor waiting for that day that he will be taken to that castle far away.

Gosh. Markdown on choice of words. Too much.

Of course, would my dear companion let the night pass by without him holding the microphone and crying his voice out? Not!

Mark & Jon did a videoke ensemble at Villalon.
Went to unplugged. Cooky Chua was there. Close na ata sila ni Jon eh. Hehe.

Jon sang Santeria. Whatever that means. It was good. Di kasi namin marinig.
But it was good. Just within his range.

Si Mark ang kulit. Hay naku. Pero ok kasama.

Masaya ang gabi.
Nagkainuman.
Kwentuhan.
Tawanan.

Gabi ng Parangal.
Kailan kaya mauulit?

Oh btw, I received a white rose. Cool huh.

"Parang atin ang gabi.. para bang wala tayong katabi.. at tayo'y sumayaw na parang di na tayo bibitaw.." - Sugarfree

remote monitor day

this is such a tiring day.
no calls earlier, rio was down, avaya was down.
everything was down but everyone was up.

no recordings so i had to do remote scanning.
good thing raiders was here and i covered apprentices of buccaneers.

im going home after this.
hopefully, tonight's gimik would not be postponed.

i miss drinking.
i miss being with friends.
i miss those friday nights!!!

kailan kaya?

haaayyy..
may sakit ka na naman.
kailan ka pa tataba?
lagi ka may sakit. huhuhu.

im sick again.
my tummy aches.
arrghh.

will be coming in tonight.
supposed to be my rest day..

yung friend ko.. ayaw na ng pseudo.
mahirap talaga yun.
lalo na't walang kasiguruhan.
kasi naman ung lalake,
daming babae.
haaay.

yung isa naman.
sad and depressed.
hayup naman kasi yung lalake.
sarap kalbuhin eh.
mas maganda naman friend ko dun noh!


love moves in mysterious ways..

its always so surprising..

how love appears over the horizon..

not just a slumbook love

Another poem about love.


its an irritatingly unique, indescribable, superb emotion that flows within our entire wholeness..

..& never can you take it away from someone.

love never dies; people do & people kill love.

love sucks; but without love, everything sucks.

love is for the world; without love where is the world?

love is all bullshit; but if you don't love, you are a moron, idiot and a whole waste of human flesh.

love is full of color; without it, it will be just gloomy blacks & sorrowful greys.

love hurts; but love heals much faster.

love messes everything up; but it also stitches & patches things up.

love makes you sniff & cry; love makes you die of laughter.

love burns until you melt down; but love can burn hell down.

love can't be undone; its permanent.

you can fall in love; you can't fall out of love, its just that love moves in a different level - lower or higher.

love is perfect; flaws & faults doesn't make it imperfect, the people-that-don't-know-how-love-works do.

LOVE DOES NOT NEED BECAUSE, BECAUSE LOVE IS THE CAUSE.

first time kumain ng rice sa bus.

lonely day.
happy night.
no chris & maymay.
dont worry chris.
had the guts to show my face.
a-holes.
coughs & colds parin.
lost my cocolife.
damn it.
miss beer.
hehe.
training daw later.

first time ko kumain ng rice sa bus.
sarap.

after shock

after that fatal day.. (fatal daw oh?)

coughs & colds.
no drugs.
the waking hour.
message in a bottle.
pick.
no letters.
warmth.
insert sim card.
blog.
sun.
drive.
sleep.

and then there was light..

has anybody joined the bridge?

check out the Photobucket link at the side of my page this moment only if you:

* attended Jay-r Tan's celebration of passing in the board exams..

* went to the NCAA opening last month at Araneta..

* are my college friend and was with me at the Shang last April 15..

* are working where I'm working at and belongs to Bucs..

* are working where I'm working at and has the same job as I am..

* attended the Pulp Summer Slam with me..


wala lang. im sick today. i feel so bad. i dont know why. maybe because im sick.

I can't stand up. maybe because I'm paralyzed.
Moments when you want to run but you can't.
I'm still lucky I have someone who's stupid as I am.
I dont want to feel anymore. I'm weak.

do you like incubus?

check out this site (i found it in a cellphone's outbox) where i heard brandon boyd singing like a virgin.

gwapo talaga ni brandon.

I'm really sorry..

does being a friend has to have conditions?

My friend hates me.. but I understand her. I do.

Am I really that bad of being one?
Or am I just too plain stupid not to see that she really needs me?

I hope this wont be for long.

I'm sorry girl if you feel that way.

I love you girl. I really do and I can never give up on what we had that easily.
I hope you wont to.

sa gitna ng kahimbingan

weird. i had a dream yesterday.. (cant say last night kasi tanghali ako natulog eh..)
i was with a guy. and he was very furious with someone.
Setting: at one of the corner cubicles at the office.. (cubicle? parang sa CR?)

GUY: ggggrrrrr! susugurin ko na yun eh!
AKO: uy, bakit ka ba galit na galit???
GUY: eh kasi yang kaibigan mo eh! *magkasalubong ang kilay at nanggigigil*
AKO: *sabay yakap sa guy at pinipigilan* ano ka ba! bakit ba kasi galit ka dun?!
GUY: *umuusok ang nguso* eh kasi ang tagal ako sagutin eh!!!

AKO: *nagising na sa katotohanan*

hehehe. i just laughed when i woke up. pero i was hoping na sana totoo. para naman masaya ang friend ko.

masaya ngaun. rest day ko eh. hehe.
dito lang sa bahay. ewan ko bukas ano mangyayari.
tignan natin.

nakadalawa lang yata ako

shocks. dalawa na pala pamangkin ko sa mga pinsan ko.. hehe.

paguwi ko kahapon hinatak ako ni boyie, pinakita ang kanyang sleeping 10-month old na bebe.

galing ako sa ortigas kasama ko si avy. end of contract nung isa niya officemate kaya ayun, inuman na naman. before nun, galing kami gamol, nagpa-Nutracell ako. sarap nga eh. sa slimmers world. hehe. sarap kasi libre.

meron pa silang parang darkroom tas isusubsob mo mukha mo makikita mo mga diperensya sa skin hehe. galing..

may inuman na naman sa kabila. bday kasi ni boyie nung july 11. pati si cj na cute nandun din kinukulit si rj. hindi na nga ako kilala eh.

nakausap ko din si Indo, the Milo Best boy. Sa November daw, he will take the board exams. gud lak. buti pa sila. hehe. (bitterness na naman!)

teka. inantok ako sa pag-edit sa composer ng Hanggang Kailan. kakaadik. hehe.

sakit ulo ko. tulog muna ko.

Be Not Afraid

I had to walk a long way to get a jeepney until Gil Puyat because of the big rally that happened at Ayala Avenue. Haayy.. There were lot of people gathered since the night before the big event scheduled for Wednesday morning.

Masaya maglakad ng mahaba basta may kasama. Kasama mo ung mga peralyista.

Posters, stickers on the walls, the big stage setup, trucks and jeepneys full of people from all over Metro Manila, or even from the provinces.

Basta lahat who supports FPJ and wants Gloria to step down.

Why dont they just increase our salaries? Haha. Rather than creating havoc and chaos in my working place. Tapos wala daw kami hazard pay. Chismis.

Sayang nga lang I forgot my digicam.
Saka di ako nakahingi ng 'BE NOT AFRAID' sticker.

Britishly singing..

At Music One, Greenbelt, people were waiting while the background announcement says that Orange & Lemons will be playing soon and were already 15 minutes frustrated. Haha.


Yeah baby!

They are on a promo for their second album, Strike Whilst the Iron is Hot.
Actually, I like the first album more, Love in the land of rubber shoes and dirty ice cream.


where's little drummer boy?

Songs I like on the second album (which we purchased at Recto records.. as Jhon calls it..) are Lihim, Heaven Knows, Caught in Line (galing ni Clem when he sang this, no accompaniment..) & Hanggang Kailan. (Umuwi ka na baby..)


I'm not British, ey..

Astig OnL. Pati mga kasama ko kahapon.

"There are times when I'm lying in my bed.. How I willow and cry from this stupid game.. And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day.."

UNSPECIFIED

You are nothing but..
..I mean everything to you.

You mean nothing to everyone.
Everyone means nothing to you.

I am your everything.
You are not my everything..
..but you dont mean nothing.

You are something to me.
Something does not mean everything.
I cant give you everything..
..but I can give you something.

Everyone means something.
Anyone can give you something.
Someone can give you everything.
Why is everyone nothing to you?

Dont make me your everything for I
cant give you everything.
I can only give you something that might be
nothing to everything that you give.

It might seem nothing to you but theres something
that makes me want to give you everything..

If you only knew how much I want to give..
..to give you everything..

-elppa-
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Pinoy Blonde OST at Podium

Gosh.. I'm so happy.. I had the chance to see Imago at promise mahal ko na si Aya..
went to Podium last night with Abby, where bands from the Pinoy Blonde Soundtrack played which includes Sugarfree, Imago, Radioactive Sago Project, Kapatid, Byaheng Reggae (with Boy 2 Quizon), Twisted Halo (na walang nasiyahan..hehe).

haaayy.. ang saya kahit masakit ang mga binti namin ni abby (at magulo yung mga teens na babae sa harapan namin..)

naiiyak ako wala kaming picture ni aya.. huhuhu. ang cute niya promise.
kulit pa niya sumasayaw siya sa Anino.. yahoo!

Sabi nila astig daw yung movie about 2 frustrated filmmakers headed by Boy 2 and Epi Quizon. Panoorin daw namin ni Abby eh.. well.. you wont know if a film is good unless you watch it.. right?

Balik digicafe

had no sleep and yet still had the time to go out with bucs. but of course, love ko silang lahat. ako kaya love nila? hehe. (just wondering..)


bucs @ digicafe. pssst.. bawal yosi dito.

went to digicafe. i saw vang pala. actually she saw me. one year higher sakin schoolmate ko as sfs na siya kasama ko sa glee club. astig na soprano un eh.


lagot ka jun puro bebot kasama mo..

i only had 2 bottles of sanmiglite. but had a few shots at the billiards hall. combo of redhorse & sanmiglite. adik kasi yung tanggero. hehe.


gorgeous gracie and cutie cam

good thing they had a night out coz joby's gonna be leaving soon. I think by the 10th. flying overseas for work. Great opportunity but of course bucs will miss him.


joby dont go! waaahhh..

Wala nako pagagalitan dahil sa overuse of sirs and ma'ams. Huhu.

the wait is over, bucs!

waiting for David..

well, although im not a part of the 'buccaneers' anymore, i still was invited to their long awaited team building, (i dunno why its called team building?). We went to Laguna, the most easiest place to find a way to relax, and be with people that makes you happy.. haaayyy..


love 'em all..

it was never a good departure, for me, well this is the day that i learned the truth. Truth really hurts. It sucks to know something when you dont want to know it but yet you need to know.

damn it. what a good way to start a journey. seeing those faces full of lies and betrayal. you never did anything good. you remained still. like youre not there.

all alone all along.

shit. my immortal should be banned from ears.

tell me where it hurts. it hurts here. where? here i said. every part of my body where blood flows. huhuhu. like you know what i mean.
cruelty to animals is a no-no. but if i can, it wont be just cruelty.


kasama na ata ako dito. hehe.

got to do grocery at walmart.. hehe.. walter mart pala.
we arrived at the venue and i saw the most amazing thing in the world.

microphone. connected to the videoke machine. haha.

of course, i need to let it all out. with bottles of beer coming at my face.
never had such a good time belting out my vocal chords until it bursts out of my neck. i wish it did happen. i wish it did not. well, then i wont be here updating this thingy, whatever you call this.

a medium of expression. feelings of hatred and sorrow and bitterness. damn it.

aarrrgh! (i learned this from my honey.. HI camela..)

where the corals are not blue

still here at ACS, been here for how many months now.. since September, gained and lost friends, co-workers.. but still here.
it was the 7th of May when we had a company outing (oh by the way its not proper to say outing, its a "summer get-away" as per HR).
Blue Coral in Batangas. Where in Bats, I dont know. and I dont care. Just look at the pics. Its the people you are with not just the place right?

Duh!

I was supposed to come in on the Friday shift but I just asked Magne if I could just attend the shift after the outing and not attend the Friday shift which actually happened since I got home around 5pm already that Friday. I woke up at 12am and arrived at ACS past 6am.

Akala ko nga iiwanan nila ko kasi 6am daw dapat ang departure. chismis. haha. Pero we left Makati at 730am. isa pang chismis. ang tagal nagantay. ewan ko kung sino o ano ang inantay. Super tagal ng byahe which left us all borlogs during the trip. It was so tiring and when we got there, it was so hot. The place was nice though, I was so excited to swim in the beach ('cause I miss Puerto Galera!) but like what Ive said, it was so hot and I would burn like hell if I went in the water.



It was fun, together with the QA's, especially May and Chris.. well, Tolitz is with someone, so were the only ones who took pictures of ourselves, of course, would I forget my handy dandy digicam? NOt!



Also had pics with Bucs, of course. Chismis kung wala diba.

I drank almost halfway of the San Mig Light bottle Jhon gave me, well, because we had to leave at 6pm.
May and I had to rush rinsing ourselves with sand and salt water because there was a long line of people outside the most biggest shower room in Batangas!

Those who would left at 6am will leave at 6pm. The time you leave is also the time you will leave. Magulo ba? Hehehe.

SINO KAYA ANG UMALIS NG 6AM, MATANONG KO LANG? MERON BA? Hell no.


Grabe miss ko talaga ang Galera at ang Laguna.

world war five!

first time to attend pulp summer slam courtesy of abby (lagi naman eh!) and jhon & company. well, we actually met there at amoranto.
it was jampacked with people, ahem, people? of all kinds and species. ill be posting pics soon.. wasnt able to bring my digicam but had done her assignment. thanks to abby i have pics to post on this event! this was also the first time i went inside a portalet! and to think that abby and I took our own picture inside! and i cannot take it! waaaahhhh!



may, abby & epol (pretty namin noh!)

well, they say shit happens every 30th of April, which had been going on for 5 years, I think. This is the 5th one.. but my first one.

drank not too much beer since its not that freezing cold anymore. since you would have to travel a long, long way to get to the beer booth and then go back to where you're posted, which for us, at the back, near the big floating globe balloon something. met new people like may (vocals ng band nila with jhon), a guy whom they met only at rakista (at nakikita lang nila pag may concert na ganito), kapatid ni jhon at mga pinsan niya (nasa dugo pala ang pagiging rakista). so sabit lang ata ako dito? hehe! so paki mo! masaya pumunta eh!



with brutal grace!

we also met up with brutal grace, official photographer of Pulp Magazine at tropa ni Avy(iba na talaga tong kaibigan ko, ang mga koneksyon!) we had pictures which ill be posting sooooooooonn!



ito ang tama!

it ended roughly at around 5am and ahem.. as the daylight peeks, creatures of the dark started to vanish.. except for some. or one..

letranista at the shang

Had a chance to be with my college friends last April 15. Met up with Avy, Pia, Nei & Nin. Yes! Nin, as in Nina Richie V. San Luis. She got here I think last Mon and wole me up on Tuesday,I was surprised and happy as well because I got the chance to see her when in fact she said that were gonna see each other again after 5 years. We went to Bocaboca at the Shang, it was a coolplace,we were outside and almost near the stage.



kanino ba 'tong extrang ulo?

Pj, Grace & France arrived with each of their own convenience. And of course, I wouldnt forget bringing my handy digicam and we actually drank the night away. Afterwards, we decided to continue the party to Malate because the Shang sleeps early. Got in a taxi and ate at Forbest, where I had the best spicy squid, courtesy of France's suggestion. I think I drank enough to be so tipsy and "makulit". What the heck? I had fun with my friends.



at starbucks malate..

Its a good thing actually because I tend to forget the things thats been bothering my mind and my heart. This is the life that I dont want to get used to because I know that these are the things that will kill me..



di na kami nakaalis dito.

So what? Much better than I kill myself, right?



2 lasing at isang mukhang lasing. lab yu pia!

we actually stayed at three places in one nigt.. di naman kami masyadong pagod nito?



abby, gusto mo rin ba ng butones ni pia?

another sizzling thursday

Sizzling stop at Jupiter St.. What makes us keep coming back to you?

This time with Dom, Pyke and Jhon. The three had increased! Hahaha!

It was Buccaneers' rest day, and it was NOT my rest day. So what? Ako pa!
Eric and Tolitz of course were present at the scene. We ate first and introduced
the famous corned beef to the new ones, and gave a brief introductory why it was literally "corned beef". At 11am in the morning, bottles start increasing, of course, with my best friend, Mr. San Mig Light.





Nevermind if Im the only gal, they say I drink like a man, but of course..

Certified girlalu pa rin to!





Isang malaking lasingan ito, lalo na si Dominador at Pyke (wherever his name came from..)
We went to digicafe afterwards just to discover that I left my sim card at Sizzling stop! WTF! Eric left it on the table and we had to go back, thank God the waiter saw it and was about ready to keep it to himself. Good thing we went back, even though, I just decided to leave it there. They played pool and I wanted to sleep, my eyes hurt and I had to come to work that night!









They actually continued the fun at Jhon's (he lives at Kasarinlan, btw..).
But before that, we took a cab and they dropped me off at home. It was around 7 in the evening. I got home and took off my clothes and slammed myself onto the bed.

I think they said they had fun singing and drank one more bottle each and went home at around 9pm. What a day! (or what a night!).

The day for me is night and night for me is day. Thats my life now.


For the past weeks, I had been drinking a lot which I know would eventually kill my system. But theres something that makes me impulsive to hold another bottle and drown myself to sleep. ito ang dahilan dahil sa unang pagkakataon, narinig ko ang paghampas ng bakal sa bakal.. sa tabi ng isang maliwanag na paraiso na walang anino mang mahahanap..

access denied!

badtrip!!!
no phone and no internet at home!
i cannot not update my blog!
many things had hapened over the past few days,
and damn it because since im here at the internet
shop i cannot upload any pics. hopefully within the
year, i can upload it. hehehe.



memento mori.

last night i was with jon, frances and her officemates
at makati republik. got home at 6am and good luck to me
i have work tonight at 11pm!



lahat kami.

been depressed and down for the past few days.
hopefully, ill get over it.
but damn it, beer is not the answer, thats true!
but who cares? alak pa!



france antok. epol gising.

can you see on the pics if im happy? of course, i am!
(liar me..)

i missed this!
i need access!!!

one sizzling black saturday.

work's done, no work tomorrow, might as well go home & sleep..

but what'll I do at home? naH!


I asked Eric and Tolitz to get a drink anywhere and we ended up at Sizzling Stop at Jupiter St. Just out of my depression and confusion, again, well, as always. Good thing kasi game yung 2 babae. (hehe). We had 4 rounds ata or 5, I forgot how many we had. I just hated the sisiG! Fuck the waiter! He already served the other meal before he informed that they had incomplete ingredients for the sisig, which is my favorite. Anyway, we still ordered it. of course it still suppressed the intoxicating spirit of San Mig Light (ano pa ba).


tolitz, epol & eric.

Badtrip, mahal ng beer. hehe. P35 each pero worth it.


eric & epol.

Ayos talaga ang San Mig.
nakapagpapatulog ng gising mong diwa.
nakapagpapawala ng malulungkot na alaala.
nakapagpapalakas ng dinadagang loob.
nakapagpipigil ng tumutulong luha.


mga lasing si gitna ng araw.

sana maulit muli.
sana malapit na yun.
kailangan lang talaga.
kahit sandali.

shet. parang pelikula.

rockista reloaded.

all sweaty and smelly and tired and wasted rockers and music lovers alike gathered at the marikina sports park for the rockista reloaded. at some time, i always go to marikina for 2 purposes only. to visit tita judilyn and kc.

..but then my confused mind and depressed heart brought me to that place and who else would I be with in such occasions? syempre, abby!

abby dropped by at 8pm, we took the mrt and fx, Got chammy with the fx driver that the sports park is already jampacked with different people.


view from the benches..

people, i mean, mga rakista, feeling rakista, nagdadamit rakista, mukhang rakista kahit hindi, mahilig sa rakista songs, naghahanap ng bf na rakista, naghahanap ng gf na rakista, mga batang rakista, baklang rakista, wasted na rakista, dugyot na rakista, rakistang manyak, rakistang puro hikaw sa kung saan-saang parte ng katawan, at may rakista pang sinundo ng tatay niya.. hahahaha!


epol & abby (nakaupo kami sa long bench sa tabi ng track field)

in short, ANYONE. im not a rocker pero nandun ako diba. just wanted to let it all loose. (what i mean is lightening up my heart and soul from stress, confusion and depression)

excerpts from last night:

+ sponge(bob) cola "naaalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalim ng kalawakan.."
+ greyhoundz' "strangle my neck 'cause you know I'd still laugh.."
+ kitchie nadal's "isip mo'y litong-lito sa mga panahong nais mong makalimot.."
+ mayonaisse's "dadalhin kita sa aming bahay, di tayo magaaway, aalis tayo sa tunay na mundo.."
+ 6 cycle mind's "di ako sanay sa biglaan, sana unti-unti na lang.."
+ kamikaze's "tsinelas ko, putangina nasan ang tsinelas ko.."
+ kapatid's "pagbabalik ng kwago, ang kwago sa gabi, sasamahan tayo kahit madilim.."
+ sandwich's "I have been waiting for you all night, under the glow of the satellite.."
+ radioactive sago project's "eto na, eto na, eto na, eto na.. ang astro!.."

weird(ness) from last night: (weird for me, so no violent reactions!)

+ guys wearing ankle long skirts
+ a girl with ankle long hair (wonder when was the last time she had a cut?)
+ kamikaze's vocals was so drunk and so high, but was able to sing well huh!
+ no smoking? (but abby was able to..)
+ no cameras? (but I was able to take pics.. haha)
+ a song about jopay?! ( i like the chorus though..)
+ announcement that his father had arrived to pick his son up
+ spongebob cola was possessed by kamikaze?
+ no stepping, standing or sitting on the track field (thanks to cris of subculture, we're able to sit on a real chair)
+ is radioactive sago project singing or delivering a declamation? (cool pa rin huh)


abby & cris of subculture.

*another thing, cris of subculture, astig! vocals na may dalawang saklay at headbanger pa. there was a whole big difference in the way he speak and the way he sang. astig talaga.

*also thanks to Gab, abby's tropa. we were able to get my digicam in and Abby's yosi.
ewan ko ba bakit bawal cam at yosi. sori na lang.

*at syempre salamat kay abby kasi kahit papaano naibsan ang nagdudurugo kong puso. wahahaha.


isang bangag at isang lasing.

may thanks pa talaga ako noh? parang nag-concert din.
sana meron ulit sa susunod.
no need to be squashed in the moshpit.
no need to sweat all over. ewww.

*ill be posting more pics. tagal ng hello.

all in a day's work.

congrats to me I was actually promoted to QA last week and I have been doing scans for the nesters. its pretty hard to scan newbies because they tend to ask how they would be able to resolve an issue and sometimes if the situation calls for it, I would actually tell the right thing to do. anyway, its their graduation yesterday. sad thing, buccaneers was not able to get the nester that I like.. (as if?!)

Here are new pics of the team. was able to waste their time making poses for my digicam. Good job Karen, that the team is doing well, hopefully it will improve more for the best.


the more the merrier.


camela, why are u harrassing david?"

..wherein afterwards, we were supposed to go to bulalo but we ended up at Yellowcab at glorietta. (not all of them came, sadly.)

ill be posting later the details on the rockista. in the meantime, settle for the pictured pic.

friendster blog.

there's a new blog in town.
friendster blogs.
its pretty cool actually because i love to take pics, the photo album is really useful for me.

check it out --> another crazyshrink

im missing someone! and i hate it. im still cool but i know he does too. i'll try this for a week but if doesnt work, i'll be back to normal.
(what is normal, anyway..?)

The World's Most Beautiful Bay..

what a place.

crystal clear water. blue sky. blue water throughout the horizon.

sun heating you up into chocolate. (who cares?)


sand & water.

I've been to Puerto Galera from afternoon of Feb25 until morning of Feb 27. Had a hard time looking for a place to rest but thank God, Mau was there and his Noel.. It was crowded with people in all shapes and sizes. Not minding each other, as long as they are having fun. As day turns to night, the bars and restos would pull up the chairs and tables to get ready for the wild children who will come out and play. It was such a wondrous night that you would never want to sleep.


night at galera with mau..

Daylight at 6am, the sun is up already but no one can stop me from dipping into the cold water. I never had this so much fun at the beach, (maybe its in rare occasions that I get to see white sands..). I really wanted to go back even if it would cost me money bwehehehe. It was a vacation for me really.. from all the work I've been doing.


ang init!!!

I am definitely going back there, during off peak season hopefully.

Im going back, I promise!

crystal clear water..,
kuha ni elppa.

more of puerto galera..