bad ending

im so helpless, lonely, and i cant do anything about it.. im losing all of them.. one by one.. actually not one by one but 6 all the same time.. it was so sudden that im calling desperate actions from everyone.. but still i feel like i didnt do my best to save them.. nauubos na mga anak ko! huhuhu..

i just dont want them to think that i didnt do anything to save them.. not until i received a message from one of them.. "for all the things that ive said that i shouldnt have said and for all the things that i didnt say that i should have said, im sorry. thanks for still taking care of me.."

im so touched coz i felt that my efforts were appreciated.. even if i know that i made stupid decisions in the past that led to disasters, and made them suffer. exaggerated? but its how i feel. i love them and i know they feel the same, maybe not all but i know i have been an important part of their worklife.. i just feel like its all coming to a bad ending.

sadness.. and more sadness..

im not a superwoman..

i wish i was in this kind of situations.. i feel so helpless that i cant do anything to save my babies.. haayy.. nauubos mga anak ko.. and those who are left im now encouraging to leave.. i just dont see any reason to stay here since i feel like theyre not treating us right.. as for my agents thats how they feel.. it sucks but its true.

i really feel so helpless, made stupid decisions and now i cant do anything for them.. i just wish they wouldnt feel that i did nothing for them.. thats the worst of my worries..