make my day, give my pay.

it's pay day!

looking forward to seeing my atm card with money in it (hopefully). why hopefully? because its my first job and my first time to earn real money, and now i have witnessed real life stupidity and experienced confusion among the people beyond the hr window (which, by the way looks like a cashier counter..hehe)

i should be the one behind those windows, and see the people rejoice, hahahaha!

anyway, i have come across this cool illusion. amazing.

every month an anniversary.

i was not able to attend work at the night of 01/23 due to inevitable circumstances. i just hope i was not late calling up the authorized personnel to inform about my weary condition. until the next day i still have the huge headache that has been bugging me, good thing i was able to attend work today. (so much for being dependable..)

by the way, check out my current obsession. i currently rave this song. i like the message of what it screams about. i dont really like rivermaya that much, i liked them when bamboo was still alive.. err i mean.. still with them. and uh, the tagboard.. wala lang nakita ko lang to sa iba. hehe.

calls today was not that toxic (thank God), but I was not able to convince the "boss" that I really had a bad headache last Sunday night. If you only knew why.. you'd understand. Makes sense huh?! but of course, you can't just give yourself out in the open.

What I love about hal is that he makes every month an anniversary. (weird but loving it..) KC greeted me happy anniversary, when in fact I didn't even have the intention of greeting him the same because of my unbearable condition and to think that he was an addition to my fate that night. But he sent me messages that really made my night a great one. Hmm.. that could be the reason why my calls were not that toxic huh? (If you only knew.. you are the only one I can divulge my self to..huhuhu..)

Things are getting rough and smooth at different times... but I'm living still. As long as I have you with me.


Am a threat to the one feeling it.

will you scream with me?

of being left alone

see u later, kathy..


kat & tj. ang swet.

** 2 photos taken on 01/16/2005 at binan


my bestfriends.

as of this moment, the girl whom i started my college life with, is now boarding China Airlines to be with her mom at Taipei. They will be staying there for two days and then head to San Francisco, CA where the original destination is. She will be staying there for good.

It's really sad that she needs to go but hey I'm happy for her. I didn't want to cry so I decided not to see her leave. She actually called me just now to say good bye. I am not a person who speaks of flowers to lighten up other people's feelings. But she knows how I feel. I know that.

She knows everything all there is to know about me. My strengths and triumphs, my faults and failures. We had a third company actually. Nina Richie. Well, she also left a few months ago already for LA and had been busy with her studies. So far we have been communicating thru YM, email and cellphones actually. Not that much but we've been keeping in touch.

People come & go in your life but there's always someone who will come back (or someone will somehow follow).

Mabubuo pa kaya ang tatlong maria?

I'm missing you Nin & I'm gonna miss you Kat.

We'll see each other. Soon. I wish.

not so much wasted

da bukaneers.


silip.


another one.

pics were taken last monday when all of the systems
were down and all of the people are celebrating. yay.

we had no calls for the entire shift.
i wondered, i was happy yet i was bored to death to
think that we extended until 10am. geez.

i realized that no matter how busy you think you are,
you will still think that doing nothing makes you
less of a something. whatever.

im crazy, remember?

buccaneers invaded pansol

im the apple among the thorns. hehe.


otso-otso pa?


the unusual suspects.

what a day.
after drowning in the bs of stupid 'kanos',
straight we went to calamba laguna.

no sleep, no rest.
im with the Tampa Bay Buccaneers headed by the loverboy
Vince. hehe.

let me break it down who im with exactly.
rode in Oli's Starex who has a gf named Kai who was
seated beside Mitch who was rumored to be an Aubrey
look-alike from Wave 3 & has a batchmate named Belle
whom brought Jen with her who drank a couple of San
Migs with Dom & her 'girl' named Joan who was a
former member of loverboy Vince who had fun drinking
and taking pics with the guys plus Jun which was the
event that was missed by Karen & her papa Mike of
which I failed to say good bye to until we went home
with a special ride to the terminal with the guys
plus Eric.

whew. one sentence paragraph.

oh and also, i got the chance to see letran, calamba. astig.

got home at 1am with a headache like someone is
drilling holes in my head.

who scored the game in the superbowl?

take a guess.

panalo talaga ang Buccaneers. see us more.

life is bitter & sweet.

your world fell apart.
you have been burned down,
beaten up, and
stripped naked of your defenses.

you stand up,
wake up,
stars in your eyes,
not twinkling but blurry ones.

eyes swell of tears,
nose bleed,
ears tired of trash talk,
and unfulfilled promises.

you manage yesterday
but today you did not.
you were able today
but tomorrow you may not.

defenses were down,
you took the risk,
coz life would is boring if you hadnt.
you were brave enough,
but still you failed.

healing is nowhere near,
people will disgrace you,
& spit on you,
because you were stupid enough
to let them break you down.

you call on to a higher power,
it takes time to get an answer,
but you will get it for sure.

but what if its too late,
you were dead,
you were killed,
because you risked it all.

life is bitter and sweet,
would you care for a bite?
or youll just swallow the sweet
and spit out the bitter ones?

would you be able to know the difference,
once you put it in your mouth?

first say.

at directv.,
uploaded by epols.

words & music.

faces & places.

welcome '05.

hehe.