Spageti

Did I get it right?
I learned how to cook spag today!
No violent reactions please!

Flickring

people.
places.
music.
noise.
memories.
gone.
alone.
desperate.
unhappy,
but happy.

sorting out my flickr.
i remembered something.
what if it's all just a big photo album,
time will just freeze the whole picture.
nothing can be changed.
can't go back now.
it's a whole new one.

take a snapshot again.
see what happens.

An Old Happy Story

excerpts from an old pocketbook:

hi!
musta na?
tagal na nating di nagkita?
ok ka lang ba?
ayusin mo buhay mo ha.
ayusin ko din sakin.
promise.
ingat ka lagi.

it's amazing
how some stories
unexpectedly
becomes my reality.

Erap (Not the President)

It was freezing outside. we had our jackets on but we still got wet.
maybe because our transportation is the open type. hehehe.

Good news! 13th month pay was given today. Thank God for this job.

Went to Rjs to sip a hot bulalo soup.
Suddenly there he was.
A kid with no slippers on, with wet, dirty clothes.
I had no change to spare so Besa paid our bill though we haven't eaten yet.
But then I thought of something else instead of giving coins.
Why not let him eat with us? Great idea. Why not.

I asked him why he had no slippers on. no answer.
We asked for his name. "it's erap." Wow.
We were so lucky to have breakfast with the most famous president in the Philippine history (well, that's just me..). imagine that.
I asked where he lives. He said its just around the corner.
I watched him eat, like he has not eaten a fine meal for days.
Like its the first time that he'll be able to eat at that place.

I just wish there was more that we can do.
But this is what we can only do.
I thank Besa for he was the one who opened my eyes to this.

First time we did this was back when we did not have any motorcycle.
We had to ride the bus at Edsa and take a jeep at Boni ave.
There was this kid who was asking for some coins,
but instead, Besa asked him to join us at Mcdo.

I was so happy and did not expect that from him.

But then I realized why.
He could not bear the fact if that would happen to him.
To his own.

Unexpected

Everytime I hear it I always expect what I want. But most of the time I get frustrated because I would eventually realize that I'm wrong, and I shouldn't be expecting too much at all.

I have all these bottled up in my head and can't figure out what is happening. It's burning inside like I wanna explode into something that I'm usually not.

It has been this long since I took this path, when I chose to live as if nothing is ever gonna be the same. I'm walking through it and leading me somewhere I don't know.

Isn't that enough to say that I understand everything?

Don't get me wrong. Everything is appreciated. Glad to hear, to see, to accept all of it. It may not be obvious. Just look a little bit closer.

I don't have any reason to complain or to back out now because what I said was true and nothing can change it. I'm still here, the same old me.

I wish its gonna be my turn now. To be understood.