out in the open

grateful and happy.
i had the guts now to say it all.
out in the open.

everyone knows.
karen, maymay, qars..
everyone around.

now i wont be afraid.
thats how i want it.
now im happy.
but not completely,
of course.

im still scared.
though this one knows.
im scared to meet this one.
chaos.

paranoia kills your brain.
so does the people around.

what can i do?
when he says im not to be involved.
in any way.
when i know,
in reality,
im one of the reasons.

maymay asked me,
"masaya ka ba?"
i said, "oo naman."

im happy kasi nakuha niya ko tanungin nun.
masaya nako 'cause she cares.

am i really happy?
of course.
every time i would have the chance
to say how i feel, im happy.

ang hirap ng sitwasyon.
pero pinipilit mo.
kasi kailangan.
kasi nagmamahal ka.