Saturday, October 22, 2005

my hands are tied.

its hard to be where i am now.
i dont even know how i got here.

what am i getting into?
i didnt even realize it until i got here.
i dont want to think that im trapped.
trapped between my mind and my heart.

i do know that i am happy.
sometimes real, sometimes not.

am i too demanding?
of myself and the people around me?

the person staring at me in my most darkest hour,
is the person waiting in vain for me to understand.

i dont even know why i started it.

having doubts? yes.

but when you love, you need no doubts.
its unfair.
unfair to yourself and the person staring back at you.

am i ready to give it all?

long lasting relationships are based on honesty and trust.
am i trusting enough?

i trust anyone so easily. because i know that no one would betray me.
maybe thats what i think. or what i want to believe.
may it be true or not.

weve been running several months,
in circles, perhaps.

now i dont want to be too demanding.
but need i not demand?
even if im being broken down into pieces?

everyone can bring you down.
but i dont want to be the one to hurt myself anymore.

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